Monday, April 25, 2011

Incubus - Drive (with lyrics)



Here's the deal...I'm a control freak, and I try like hell to trust in the universe and the people that I allow into my world and my heart, but sometimes (all the time!) I tend to over analyze things and sometimes (really only sometimes) I get overly cautious in a way that can actually shut me out from the people who I'm trying to let in.  Other times however, I'm completely spontaneous and throw caution to the wind for a live in the moment of feel good bliss...go figure.  (Hey, I've told ya before I'm a walking contradiction...hello major contradiction!) 

This whole meditation thing and trusting in the universe isn't always easy...especially when it's the control over my life (and possibly my heart) I'm giving up, but I was reminded again recently, that I cannot let the fear drive...it's not healthy or productive.  It makes me frustrated and sad, and it always (ALWAYS) backfires on me...then I heard the Incubus song and I couldn't help but add it here...it completely fits with my day. 

I do feel better when I take control over the fear, but then I really feel the best when I release that fear into the universe and let it (the universe) take control and take care of me (yeah, sometimes I like to be taken care of...so what?...I'm not ashamed to admit it...I can still be a tough badass tomboy chic and let people take care of me every once in a while).  However, sometimes I think I just need a gentle or subtle reminder that it's ok to give up control...ok, maybe not so subtle would work best for me.  I'm a stubborn bull, so sometimes I only see what I want to see, and subtle and me...not so much worky worky together.  Usually a baseball bat of honesty and information to the head is a better way to get the point across to us stubborn bulls...just sayin. :)

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